Kejut Aku Bila September Tamat

Could it be that I'm regretting my decision to work in an office environment? I find that I'm a bit stressed whenever I go to work. In fact, I don't think I have good focus.

Hari Raya is a week away. I look forward to this holiday. But I still can't believe it, is Ramadan truly going to end soon? I'm not ready for its departure. It'll be pretty boring.

I'm thinking of changing my car. Its appearance is attracting unwanted attention. It's also a gas-guzzler. Granted I do like to speed around the highway, but most of the time I only cruise at a very moderate, law-abiding speed.

Next time I must make it a practice to say no. I don't know why but it must have been embedded in me that I have to say yes to every request without even a question as to why. I exhausted and wasted time for myself the whole day just because I nodded.

Also, a very special day, at least for myself, is coming soon. Particularly because passing that day would mean I'm old. If I was supposed to die at the age according to the life expectancy data, I have lived approximately 35% of my life. Puts things in perspective it had.

Apa Bawa, Ogos?

Been a month since I started my new job. Pretty slow things are going here. Or I am not doing enough. Must find work. And set priorities.

Ramadhan arrived. He wasn't thrilled enough to see me. In fact, he kinda forgot about me, took some days before he finally sinks in. Yes, the fact that Ramadhan had arrived didn't dawn to me until the few days it came.

I'm saving now, I'm thinking of going out of the country for a holiday. But I haven't paid my study loan for the last two months... I'll save my money to pay for the study loans.

Thinking of taking up French. Bought a quick French study guide, taking classes would cost me a bit, and I have lots of commitments now. Things to pay for actually. It's pretty bad.

And I got myself a car. Well, actually dad helped. A lot. Turns out he bought a really nice car, which will bite quite a portion from my budget. In fact, it leaves me with less to spend for myself. But then again, I spend really little, like a scrooge.

I am mending my relationships with my brother. I do not want animosity to come between us. He is he and I am I, but that doesn't mean we can't get together. I hope we can get along just fine.

Now I'm reading a few historical fictions to past the time. In fact, I believe I've found what interest me most is history. I'm planning to buy historical fiction novels and history books to fill up my shelf, once I get my salary this month. I hope there'll be some left.