Inisiatif

You'd think there'd be less problems if everyone gets along with each other. Everyone being amicable to each other isn't impossible. Everyone just needs to get rid of their personal desires and agendas to work on a common goal. Yes, everyone should be in a hive mind mentality.

Sometimes I can't get these people who are too proud of the titles that go along with their names. Sure, you work all that sweat to get yourself the title of Professor. All those years of study to earn that degree/master/phd/whathaveyou so you can reach the top. Is that really what that time in class/lecture/research all about? No wonder the country's progressing nowhere.

I posted something on my fb about me gaining a few inches. My relatives at the kampung commented on it, and lady are they hilarious. They're so truthful and innocent to a naught. I had to remove that post because of their sincerity - I just can't live with that amount of sincerity, and to be honest I was posting so I can measure how soft I am: turns out I'm pretty pudgy. Time for a workout!

Kompulsori

I smiled when I checked Google for this word. What's the synonym for it in Malay? I bet nobody can answer that. Everyday life is making the word part of the Malay vocabulary as with other words such as manipulasi, inventori and such.

Where do I see myself in five years?

I'm in Canada, talking in French with my colleagues at university as we try to figure out what to eat before going to class.

Years later I'd probably live there

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Please excuse me for not updating the blog. Still reeling in from post-birthday trauma. 25 years and my life is still trying to get up that great big hill of hope for a destination.

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Terbang Terbang Melayang

Finding time to revise my friend list at Facebook. There's a whole bunch of faces that I never recognize and never in my life have I interacted with these people, so I did what's best for myself and removed them from the list. They won't miss me. They didn't even know me.

Inching step by step into the conclusion of a game I just bought, but the memory stick it was in decided to play a game called Ruin Your Buyer's Day and go kaput. I'm forced to send that stick and see if they can check for faults and get me a new replacement. More minutes of my life consumed to do something trivial.

Nice week spent relaxing at home and spending time with cousins and relatives. A time of togetherness. That is Eid. There is a special feeling when it comes to celebrating Eid. Of course, over time that special feeling is lost, since you're not a kid anymore. It used to be jovial, what with spending time playing fireworks with cousins and getting packet money. All is gone, but the memories still linger.

Latin is now easier to learn thanks to Jones's book. The other book I bought by Harwood was a joke. It pushed me with so many phrases then asks me to "forget all that". I should have known that when it published a third edition, it wasn't worth it. So far, Jones' was much better. It knows that when you want to learn a language, what's more important than most is grammar.

As I look at my wallet I realized that money is like water. It flows very rapidly this month. If not for the car accident I was involved in I'd still have some excess left to show that in my bank statement, it's all good. But then again, it was all my fault, if I hadn't fall asleep that time, I know I'd still save all the trouble. Now, I sing along to the music on the radio so I won't do that.

Next few days, I'd be depressed I guess. I'm inching close to that mark. Some people say those things are just numbers. I think I should adopt that thinking. What's most important is that when I show up around people I must keep good appearances and interactiveness. I'll start with the immediate people around me.

Dang stupid console with expensive games that I have to wait until I get my salary to buy one game that I'll only play for 10 minutes! Also, I think I'll buy a PSP next month. I hope I don't regret this!

Kejut Aku Bila September Tamat

Could it be that I'm regretting my decision to work in an office environment? I find that I'm a bit stressed whenever I go to work. In fact, I don't think I have good focus.

Hari Raya is a week away. I look forward to this holiday. But I still can't believe it, is Ramadan truly going to end soon? I'm not ready for its departure. It'll be pretty boring.

I'm thinking of changing my car. Its appearance is attracting unwanted attention. It's also a gas-guzzler. Granted I do like to speed around the highway, but most of the time I only cruise at a very moderate, law-abiding speed.

Next time I must make it a practice to say no. I don't know why but it must have been embedded in me that I have to say yes to every request without even a question as to why. I exhausted and wasted time for myself the whole day just because I nodded.

Also, a very special day, at least for myself, is coming soon. Particularly because passing that day would mean I'm old. If I was supposed to die at the age according to the life expectancy data, I have lived approximately 35% of my life. Puts things in perspective it had.

Mengalih Fokus

Got to the bank to pay my first payment on the car yesterday. It felt exciting somewhat, to mark your steps into adulthood, and into the world of bills, bills, bills and more bills. Never thought it would come this soon.

Had read about teen getting raped after daring to sneak out to go clubbing with people they met online, and then made a police report. The rapist gets caught, but the teens go scott-free? No, justice is still done - the teens are not virgins anymore.

After thinking about it, I think we're going to take a flight out for the coming Raya holidays. And hearing about the Raya bonus, it is a very good divergence. Mother needs a divergence too. Perhaps a flight to Sabah to visit my aunt and uncle there? Perhaps.

Now I have to admit, I miss my old work at the Kinokuniya bookstore. Most of all actually, is the people I work with. They are a bloody cool bunch. The job itself? Yeah, it actually is much more better than working in this stuffy office.

And now more divergence, what with getting the once-broken PSP back in my hands, and tomorrow to take the car for a spin in Kuala Lumpur to settle more bills and finally get the book I was looking for in my hands. "Learn Latin". How curious, right?

Apa Bawa, Ogos?

Been a month since I started my new job. Pretty slow things are going here. Or I am not doing enough. Must find work. And set priorities.

Ramadhan arrived. He wasn't thrilled enough to see me. In fact, he kinda forgot about me, took some days before he finally sinks in. Yes, the fact that Ramadhan had arrived didn't dawn to me until the few days it came.

I'm saving now, I'm thinking of going out of the country for a holiday. But I haven't paid my study loan for the last two months... I'll save my money to pay for the study loans.

Thinking of taking up French. Bought a quick French study guide, taking classes would cost me a bit, and I have lots of commitments now. Things to pay for actually. It's pretty bad.

And I got myself a car. Well, actually dad helped. A lot. Turns out he bought a really nice car, which will bite quite a portion from my budget. In fact, it leaves me with less to spend for myself. But then again, I spend really little, like a scrooge.

I am mending my relationships with my brother. I do not want animosity to come between us. He is he and I am I, but that doesn't mean we can't get together. I hope we can get along just fine.

Now I'm reading a few historical fictions to past the time. In fact, I believe I've found what interest me most is history. I'm planning to buy historical fiction novels and history books to fill up my shelf, once I get my salary this month. I hope there'll be some left.

Ini sudah empat tahun!

I never checked until recently, but this blog is already four years old.
I'm amazed.

I imagine all the things I could've written in that span of time.
I imagine the followings I could've gathered on that moment.
I imagine all the events that took place within that span of time.
I imagine the things that changed my outlook on life on that instant.

By time, verily, man is at lost.