Sunday, October 09, 2011

Hidup

Today is 10 of October. 16 more days before my brother celebrates his twentieth. Already celebrated my birthday last month. And what a great birthday it was. Being out of country for a change. Its memories are for my own only.

I really love Angela Aki. I heard her first singing when I was playing Final Fantasy XII. I've fell in love with her music since. But only for XII tho. Then I tried to start listening to her other songs. The recent one I heard was called Life. It is a beautiful song judging from the melody. The message is a bit melancholic but I suppose Life is.

My work performance is pretty dismal. No motivation, no loyalty. Fortunately I have people to help me hold on to it. I do not mean it in an immoral way though. These people help to see my job for what it is, a stepping stone and a brief stop through the journey. And an eye-opener.

On the other hand, my French is still pretty much stuck on greetings. I forgot most of my Latin already. My Japanese is now pretty much limited to how I read kana characters. For once I see that my language passion isn't really going the way I thought it might. I blame it on my current job.

Reaching Out to the Truth is pretty apt for this blog. I apologize for not updating it as much as I wish to. I really think I need a schedule. I'm working on one now. If my attention span isn't so terrible, that is.

Sunday, December 05, 2010

Inisiatif

You'd think there'd be less problems if everyone gets along with each other. Everyone being amicable to each other isn't impossible. Everyone just needs to get rid of their personal desires and agendas to work on a common goal. Yes, everyone should be in a hive mind mentality.

Sometimes I can't get these people who are too proud of the titles that go along with their names. Sure, you work all that sweat to get yourself the title of Professor. All those years of study to earn that degree/master/phd/whathaveyou so you can reach the top. Is that really what that time in class/lecture/research all about? No wonder the country's progressing nowhere.

I posted something on my fb about me gaining a few inches. My relatives at the kampung commented on it, and lady are they hilarious. They're so truthful and innocent to a naught. I had to remove that post because of their sincerity - I just can't live with that amount of sincerity, and to be honest I was posting so I can measure how soft I am: turns out I'm pretty pudgy. Time for a workout!

Monday, October 25, 2010

Kompulsori

I smiled when I checked Google for this word. What's the synonym for it in Malay? I bet nobody can answer that. Everyday life is making the word part of the Malay vocabulary as with other words such as manipulasi, inventori and such.

Where do I see myself in five years?

I'm in Canada, talking in French with my colleagues at university as we try to figure out what to eat before going to class.

Years later I'd probably live there

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Please excuse me for not updating the blog. Still reeling in from post-birthday trauma. 25 years and my life is still trying to get up that great big hill of hope for a destination.

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Tuesday, September 21, 2010

Terbang Terbang Melayang

Finding time to revise my friend list at Facebook. There's a whole bunch of faces that I never recognize and never in my life have I interacted with these people, so I did what's best for myself and removed them from the list. They won't miss me. They didn't even know me.

Inching step by step into the conclusion of a game I just bought, but the memory stick it was in decided to play a game called Ruin Your Buyer's Day and go kaput. I'm forced to send that stick and see if they can check for faults and get me a new replacement. More minutes of my life consumed to do something trivial.

Nice week spent relaxing at home and spending time with cousins and relatives. A time of togetherness. That is Eid. There is a special feeling when it comes to celebrating Eid. Of course, over time that special feeling is lost, since you're not a kid anymore. It used to be jovial, what with spending time playing fireworks with cousins and getting packet money. All is gone, but the memories still linger.

Latin is now easier to learn thanks to Jones's book. The other book I bought by Harwood was a joke. It pushed me with so many phrases then asks me to "forget all that". I should have known that when it published a third edition, it wasn't worth it. So far, Jones' was much better. It knows that when you want to learn a language, what's more important than most is grammar.

As I look at my wallet I realized that money is like water. It flows very rapidly this month. If not for the car accident I was involved in I'd still have some excess left to show that in my bank statement, it's all good. But then again, it was all my fault, if I hadn't fall asleep that time, I know I'd still save all the trouble. Now, I sing along to the music on the radio so I won't do that.

Next few days, I'd be depressed I guess. I'm inching close to that mark. Some people say those things are just numbers. I think I should adopt that thinking. What's most important is that when I show up around people I must keep good appearances and interactiveness. I'll start with the immediate people around me.

Dang stupid console with expensive games that I have to wait until I get my salary to buy one game that I'll only play for 10 minutes! Also, I think I'll buy a PSP next month. I hope I don't regret this!

Thursday, September 02, 2010

Kejut Aku Bila September Tamat

Could it be that I'm regretting my decision to work in an office environment? I find that I'm a bit stressed whenever I go to work. In fact, I don't think I have good focus.

Hari Raya is a week away. I look forward to this holiday. But I still can't believe it, is Ramadan truly going to end soon? I'm not ready for its departure. It'll be pretty boring.

I'm thinking of changing my car. Its appearance is attracting unwanted attention. It's also a gas-guzzler. Granted I do like to speed around the highway, but most of the time I only cruise at a very moderate, law-abiding speed.

Next time I must make it a practice to say no. I don't know why but it must have been embedded in me that I have to say yes to every request without even a question as to why. I exhausted and wasted time for myself the whole day just because I nodded.

Also, a very special day, at least for myself, is coming soon. Particularly because passing that day would mean I'm old. If I was supposed to die at the age according to the life expectancy data, I have lived approximately 35% of my life. Puts things in perspective it had.

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

Mengalih Fokus

Got to the bank to pay my first payment on the car yesterday. It felt exciting somewhat, to mark your steps into adulthood, and into the world of bills, bills, bills and more bills. Never thought it would come this soon.

Had read about teen getting raped after daring to sneak out to go clubbing with people they met online, and then made a police report. The rapist gets caught, but the teens go scott-free? No, justice is still done - the teens are not virgins anymore.

After thinking about it, I think we're going to take a flight out for the coming Raya holidays. And hearing about the Raya bonus, it is a very good divergence. Mother needs a divergence too. Perhaps a flight to Sabah to visit my aunt and uncle there? Perhaps.

Now I have to admit, I miss my old work at the Kinokuniya bookstore. Most of all actually, is the people I work with. They are a bloody cool bunch. The job itself? Yeah, it actually is much more better than working in this stuffy office.

And now more divergence, what with getting the once-broken PSP back in my hands, and tomorrow to take the car for a spin in Kuala Lumpur to settle more bills and finally get the book I was looking for in my hands. "Learn Latin". How curious, right?

Monday, August 16, 2010

Apa Bawa, Ogos?

Been a month since I started my new job. Pretty slow things are going here. Or I am not doing enough. Must find work. And set priorities.

Ramadhan arrived. He wasn't thrilled enough to see me. In fact, he kinda forgot about me, took some days before he finally sinks in. Yes, the fact that Ramadhan had arrived didn't dawn to me until the few days it came.

I'm saving now, I'm thinking of going out of the country for a holiday. But I haven't paid my study loan for the last two months... I'll save my money to pay for the study loans.

Thinking of taking up French. Bought a quick French study guide, taking classes would cost me a bit, and I have lots of commitments now. Things to pay for actually. It's pretty bad.

And I got myself a car. Well, actually dad helped. A lot. Turns out he bought a really nice car, which will bite quite a portion from my budget. In fact, it leaves me with less to spend for myself. But then again, I spend really little, like a scrooge.

I am mending my relationships with my brother. I do not want animosity to come between us. He is he and I am I, but that doesn't mean we can't get together. I hope we can get along just fine.

Now I'm reading a few historical fictions to past the time. In fact, I believe I've found what interest me most is history. I'm planning to buy historical fiction novels and history books to fill up my shelf, once I get my salary this month. I hope there'll be some left.


Thursday, July 22, 2010

Ini sudah empat tahun!

I never checked until recently, but this blog is already four years old.
I'm amazed.

I imagine all the things I could've written in that span of time.
I imagine the followings I could've gathered on that moment.
I imagine all the events that took place within that span of time.
I imagine the things that changed my outlook on life on that instant.

By time, verily, man is at lost.

Monday, November 09, 2009

So, I came up with this lame idea to write some of the things I experienced during my four day trip to Tokyo. Well, three actually if you discounted that first day when I first arrived, and that last day where I didn't go anywhere except straight to Narita.

Without further ado, let's start with note number one.

TOKYO FIVE DAY NOTES - DENSHA 01

Densha is the Japanese word for "Trains". Why am I writing about trains on my first note to Japan? Because trains are what brought me to Tokyo in the first place. Trains are the integral part of the whole transportation system in Japan.

- Take the train, it's cheaper -

When I first arrived in Narita, I recalled something I read about making trip to Tokyo: Never take a taxi from Narita to Tokyo. They're bloody expensive and the distance from Narita to Tokyo is bloody far. Plus, unbearable traffic. A train ride to Tokyo will cost only around 1000 yen, that's 38 ringgit more or less, and really worth the ride. You can see part of Japan's life spectrum just from a train ride.

- Know your lines -

At the guidance of my friend Daiki, I learned that trains in Greater Tokyo has many lines. Knowing which Line to take is really important in making your way around Tokyo. That ride from the airport to my friend's house alone took me on three different lines, and two different train companies to boot: the Keisei Company and the JR East Company. It's best to bring a Line map just in case that diagram in the ticketing booth can't help.

English can help you, but only for a short while. Trust me on this, you will need a Japanese person to guide you on your way to the trains, or better yet, you know Japanese. As far as I know, only several stations has a railway line map with English written on it. JR East has trains that speak English on most of its line, although maybe that would be a bit too late if you want to know where you're going in advance. Plus, you have to know which line goes to your destination. Even with my meager Japanese language skills I still got lost on my way from Akabane to Nippori.

Fortunately, these lines are color coded for your convenience. For example, the Yamanote line that encircles an area within Tokyo is colored light green, and this line goes through most of the famous destinations such as Shibuya, Shinjuku, Harajuku, Akihabara and Ikebukuro. I think I spent most of my time on the Yamanote line, listening to the jingles. I'll touch on the jingles on my next note.

つづく

Sunday, November 08, 2009

Soklannyer senang jer.

Huhuhu....interview tu ambil masa lebih kurang 20 minit jer. Soklannyer bukannya banyak pun. Tapi.... arghh... result keluar 12 Nov nih. Kalau tak berjaya aku nak berkelana.

1. Citerkan tentang diri awak.
2. Kamu ambil bahasa Jepun yer. Kenapa?
3. Apa pendapat kamu tentang isu kuil di Shah Alam tu.
4. Sebagai perancang bandar, kamu akan berpihak kepada siapa?
5. Apa yang kamu faham tentang "pembangunan mampan"
6. Pada pendapat kamulah, adakah Putrajaya ini mencapai pembangunan mampan?
7. Bagaimana pula dengan Shah Alam?
8. Apa aspirasi kamu?
9. Ada soalan kepada kami?

Wednesday, September 09, 2009

SPA Interview!

8 pagi 11/09/09. Temuduga SPA.

Cemas. Khuatir. Risau.

Jawatan kontrak. Perancang Bandar. J41.

Soalan latarbelakang. Isu semasa. Perihal jawatan.

Esok. Terbit. Soalan.

Doakan saya berjaya. Lepasi temuduga. Dapat jawatan!

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

abc

You've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with the ABCs of YOU.

A - Age: 23 years and 11 months

B - Bed Size: Single

C - Chore you hate: Mopping

D - Dad's name: Abd. Aziz

E - Essential start-your-day item: Wristwatch

F - Favorite colours: White, Blue, Black

G - Gold or Silver: Silver

H - Height: 1.75m

I - Instruments you play (ed): Recorder

J- Job title: 24/7 retail assistant's assistant

K - Kid(s): Soon.

L - Living arrangements: Parents.

M - Mom's name: Noraida

N - Nicknames: Noll, Enol, Ipin, Pin, Paine, Aripiyayin, Aripunandos, Aripinarnia, Bluer

O - Overnight hospital stay: Never.

P - Pet Peeve: Unnecessary noises.

Q - Quote from a movie: I've a bad feeling about this.

R - Right or left hand: Right.

S - Siblings: Two brother and two sisters

T - Time you wake up: 7.30 am

U - Underwear: Owns whatever underwear there is out there, but mostly boxerbriefs

V - Vegetable you dislike: Gourds, cucumber

W - Ways you run late: late night internet surfing.

X - X-rays you've had: Two?

Y - Yummy food you make: Scrambled eggs.

Z - Zoo favorite: Birds.

Monday, August 10, 2009

Be responsible

My throat's dry. I'm coughing. My nose isn't running, but I'm still inhaling mucus. Looks like it's time for some spring cleaning.

Grey clouds are marching over the sky. The air is still, though occasionally a cool breeze drifts. The sun is hidden, struggling to get its light through. It was victorious, shining its golden light over the landscape, though the grey clouds persist.

I didn't have dinner last night, so my stomach's grumbling this morning. Was thinking of scramble eggs, but we ran out of bread. Went to the shop, but it wasn't open yet. Couldn't afford to wait for half an hour. Returned empty-handed, and chugged a glass of warm lime.

An article I wrote in Wikipedia got featured in the main page yesterday. That is some feat, you see, considering Wikipedia has a great number of nonsensical policy and anal police running amok. I stopped contributing majorly years ago.

I find it strange. We have close to 2000 cases of swine flu and 37+ deaths from it, but Germany has 9000 cases and no deaths so far! Japan has 5000 cases, and nobody's dieing? Philippines has 3200 cases - and only 9 deaths?

I'm gonna go drink 8 glasses of water now.

Friday, July 24, 2009

Mean? Sarcastic? Me?

I was tagged to do this. So, yeah. Read on.

If an annoying person says:
1) I am cute.
YR: Yes, you are. *snrk*

2) I am the most beautiful/handsome.
YR: The maggots would love to chew on that.

3) See, everyone likes me because I am rich and famous!
YR: That's a sad existence..

4) Unlike you, I am perfectly multi-skilled. I do everything very well from sports to academic thingy.
YR: It's a wonder you're not solving world hunger yet.

5) You don’t know me? I am Bruneian artist; I have albums.
YR: Oh, the ones that didn't sell, huh.

If an annoying hot woman/man says:
1) I know you like me.
YR: Only on the outside.

2) What are you looking at? I am not interested in you!
YR: No, it's just that, you make a pretty good traffic light.

3) Sorry, you are nice but seriously not my type!
YR: Its a wonder your brain had the capacity to judge.

4) UNLESS you are rich, then don’t dream that I will get a ride with you!
YR: I pity the fool riding with you.

5) Look, I am pretty/handsome; I can make people hate you!
YR: And I care about what others think, when?

If an annoying extremely ugly woman/man says:
1) I think you and I can make a good couple.
YR: No, you're better off alone.

2) May I have your cell phone? Please please please?
YR: I'm sorry, only people I care have it.

3) Hi, wanna hang out? I want you to be with me the whole night.
YR: I'm really busy... with life.

4) What do you like about me?
YR: That's a pretty difficult question (silent for five minutes) got a clue yet?

5) I want you to say that I am pretty/handsome and you like me sooooo much!
YR: How much would you pay me?

If your enemy says:
1) Hi bitch!
YR: Your vocab's pretty limited, eh.

2) You smell like shit!
YR: You've been washing toilets for too long, that's all you ever smell.

3) What an ugly creature you are!
YR: It gets one to know one.

4) I am going to kick your ass in this race for sure!
YR: Does it really matter?


If your annoying ex says:
1) I still love you...
YR: And I still don't.

2) I know you still love me!
YR: I guess you don't know me that much.

3) Please, go back with me honey/hubby.
YR: Please, leave me alone (sarcastic cry)

4) Please call me...
YR: My credits are too precious to be spent on ya.

5) The break up hurt me so much.
YR: You get what you ask for.

If an annoying salesperson says:
1) Wow! You are so pretty/handsome!
YR: Either you have a very good eye, or a very bad mouth. I'm rooting for the latter.

2) Seriously, I used this product and I've changed!
YR: For the worse?

3) We are giving a discount up to 50%!
YR: It must be a pretty worthless product.

4) This one is good sir/madam. Buy sir/madam, buy.
YR: You really have no faith in your product to resort to begging?

Verdict: I'm a nice guy.

I tag people who wasted at least three seconds reading my entry. Go go go....or not.

Saturday, May 23, 2009

I has a webcomix

It hit me while I was in the bathroom. Dur dur dur...

...I was cleaning said bathroom.

Tuesday, May 05, 2009

Masuk Akal?

Ini aku dapat dari sorang member yang forward dari sorang member.

"Cuba fikirkan. Seorang lelaki Inggeris masuk ke dalam pub membawa buku agama Islam. Sedang dia membaca buku tu, seorang pemuda muslim yang mabuk menegurnya. "Hei, mana boleh bawak buku agama Islam masuk pub." Lelaki Inggeris itu membalas, "habis awak Muslim, macam mana pula awak boleh masuk pub? Pemuda muslim itu terdiam dan tersipu-sipu malu."

Memang tak masuk akal langsung. Pertama, pemuda muslim. Kedua, dia mabuk. Hey, member, kalau betul dier muslim macam mana pulak dier boleh mabuk? Kalau dier mabuk minum arak, lagi aku tak boleh terima. Ni agenda memburukkan penganut agama Islam ker? Lagi satu, takkan perpustakaan dah takder nak baca buku agama oi!

Apasallah member aku ni, suka ati jer forward benda-benda mengarut ni. Apasal bodoh sangat?

Monday, April 27, 2009

Face the music

I must face the music. I may be the son of a commercial airline pilot who earns thousands of ringgits a week - but I'm not rich. That money is not my money. Therefore I am a poor boy of the slums.

I am jobless. I have a study debt of RM17,000 ++. I owe it to my parents for my food, lodging and clothes (which mainly consists of my father's old clothes). I am helpless without them, my father especially.

And yesterday one scenario summoned that truth which smacked me right in the face. I am too dependent of my parents. I thought I was well to-do. I thought I could get anything that money could buy. No. Those things are lies.

Today onwards, I must realize, I am not rich. I am moneyless. And I must live with that truth in mind. No more desires. No more pride. Live with what I have, and don't ask for anything.

Friday, April 24, 2009

Last minute

I've been doing things in the last minute! Here's a list:

1. Last minute spell check
2. Last minute book binding
3. Last minute job application
4. Last minute appeal for a marks revision
5. Last minute cleaning laundry for interview the next day
6. Last minute application for visa
7. Last minute buying travel tickets
8. Last minute cancellation of invitation
9. Last minute grocery shopping for feast the next day
10. Last minute call about book reservation
11. Last minute grammar correction
12. Last minute consultation on paper
13. Last minute laundry pickup
14. Last minute asking for a sleepover
15. Last minute request for a holiday

There's actually more but I feel this too much a punishment already. Haha.

Saturday, March 28, 2009

Cita-cita? Aper tu? Is it edible?

Aku akan menghadap pensyarah untuk sesi "viva" menjelang April. Kendian aku kena jilid paper aku lepas tu kasi hardcover. Then, I'll be waiting for my convocation, officially receiving my degree.

Persoalannya, apakah jalan yang akan aku tempuhi selepas ini? Sekrg aku tgh buat bodo, tolong mak aku dgn cafe dimsum dobi dier. What then, working in that post for all eternity?

Bonda tersayang mencadangkan supaya aku memohon lesen penerbangan untuk menjadi seorang juruterbang komersil. Tapi yg problem nyer, aku rabun dan pakai glasses. My father insists that this condition will affect my application and I will be rejected.

Yang amat menghairankan, ayahanda seakan sanggup untuk membayar bagi rawatan untuk memulihkan penglihatanku. Bapak aku ni betul ker or dier ni main2 nak sedapkan ati aku? And I have a feeling I'm not cut out to become a pilot.

Aku masih tidak dapat menentukan masa depan aku - bagaimana jika sudah sampai masa untuk aku berkongsi hidup dengan teman takdirku? Xker jd masalh nnti, dgn duit blnjanyer, nak buat anaknyer, pastu makbapak sure nk rs duit kiter gak! And here I am, a 23 year old male, still deciding what to become when I graduate!

Sesiapa sahaja diluar sana, sudikah anda membantu? Kasila opinion, apa yg korg pikir boleh tolg aku? I am very computer literate, I love languages, I have short attention span, I don't care much about other people's problems, I play video games and read books, I love to travel abroad, I am addicted to the internet and I don't keep like to keep pets.

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

23 human years

By the way, I am officially 23rd today according to the Gregorian Calendar.

I'm thinking of getting myself a birthday present. Maybe an MP3 Player to listen to during my boring one hour journey from home to work.

Happy Birthday to me and thanks to the seven people who had wished me a happy birthday - you know who you are! =3